i think either you missed home row by a hand or you were out drinking with the junior account boys again

i don't like to post here when i'm unhappy.  i try to keep this place positive and i think of myself as being an upbeat & cheerful person.  i've kept quiet because this new year has been hard, it has been cruel & i haven't felt like myself...

some of you know that i had been dating someone for a couple months, i was having so much fun, my life felt full of possibilities.  i trusted him & let him inside my world like i never have before.  i shared my family with him, we made plans in advance.  then something happened, i don't know what, i only know that when i returned from Maine he had cut me out of his life.  i came home & he wouldn't speak to me, wouldn't communicate with me in any way.  i tried, i reached out & he was gone.

while processing that sudden, unexplained loss, i was travelling to NYC to spend as much time with my sister & jo as i could.  so much so that i started to feel like i lived there more than i do here.  as of this past monday they now live in Switzerland!  that's mostly exciting, we had a lot of fun together & ate a lot of great food before they left.  (two meals at Lupa in one month?  swoon!)   my sister & i have grown so close these past few years & she's been there for me through some tough moments so it's really hard knowing that i can't just hop on the bus & arrive at their apt in time for dinner...  but of course we can talk on the phone & i am already planning my trip out there!

so there it is.  that's what's been going on.  i'm sorry to have disappeared, but some times you need to retreat inside & take a little time to yourself.