i think either you missed home row by a hand or you were out drinking with the junior account boys again

i don't like to post here when i'm unhappy.  i try to keep this place positive and i think of myself as being an upbeat & cheerful person.  i've kept quiet because this new year has been hard, it has been cruel & i haven't felt like myself...

some of you know that i had been dating someone for a couple months, i was having so much fun, my life felt full of possibilities.  i trusted him & let him inside my world like i never have before.  i shared my family with him, we made plans in advance.  then something happened, i don't know what, i only know that when i returned from Maine he had cut me out of his life.  i came home & he wouldn't speak to me, wouldn't communicate with me in any way.  i tried, i reached out & he was gone.

while processing that sudden, unexplained loss, i was travelling to NYC to spend as much time with my sister & jo as i could.  so much so that i started to feel like i lived there more than i do here.  as of this past monday they now live in Switzerland!  that's mostly exciting, we had a lot of fun together & ate a lot of great food before they left.  (two meals at Lupa in one month?  swoon!)   my sister & i have grown so close these past few years & she's been there for me through some tough moments so it's really hard knowing that i can't just hop on the bus & arrive at their apt in time for dinner...  but of course we can talk on the phone & i am already planning my trip out there!

so there it is.  that's what's been going on.  i'm sorry to have disappeared, but some times you need to retreat inside & take a little time to yourself.

Comments

[Nicole]

Uuugh that's sucky. Big hugs to feeling better.

[Suzanne]

i only recently started reading your blog, but wanted to say hang in there and good for you for taking some time to yourself.

[Nobia]

I'm so sorry for the crummy start to a New Year. Hopefully getting it written out, and expressed will help you move forward.

[Sage]

I hope things will look up for you. I just went through something similar, and is as befuddled as you were when the "possibilities" abruptly ended. But as I now look back without my rose tingled glasses, I realized it was for the best. By the world still wrapped up in its cold wrapper, I am positive that new "possibilities" will bloom with spring.

[eydie]

I am sorry to hear.....I don't know what to say, but wanted to say something. Or, maybe just let you know I am here, listening. I did miss hearing from you.

[jo]

sis
can't wait to see your ssa in CH!!!!!
miss ya
j

[youcraft]

A double loss, although one that seems cruelly painful while the other in many ways seems somewhat joyful for you in its possibilities.
Best wishes for the future.

[kitty]

I'm sorry to hear about how badly your new year has been thus far -- I completely understand because my year has been much the same and I've spent some time hiding.

But! I am happy to see you posting again. Here's to a better year filled with lovely people, new landscapes to explore in Switzerland and ever so many tasty cups of coffee. Hugs!

[Griff]

I'm so sorry to hear things have been lousy lately. You deserve better. I hope things start looking up!

Best,
Griff

[Marianne Wille]

Sorry about the hard year so far. :(

I often think of you when I look at the little green creature you made that now graces my entryway.

Your sister sounds lovely!

[Jay]

mer that is what I have to say about the stupid guy. Some of us guys are just stupid! If he doesn't see how great you are then he isn't worth it, guess thats just my theory... Try to keep your chin up, the sun should be shining soon!

[Brian]

Cool blog! It's hard for me to imagine how you spend this much time on it. Independently wealthy? I guess bloging is, in itself, a worthwhile venture, in that it clarifies ones thoughts.

Speaking of coffee - did you know it's GOOD for you? The next time someone tells you coffee is bad for you send them to this site:
http://www.CoffeeIsGoodforyou.com

[Kris]

Hey, how are you doing??

[Lauren]

wow, i was traveling from link page to link page, and i happened upon your adorable little site, and besides enjoying your creations, this entry really hit home. I am going through nearly the exact same thing right now...and it sucks. I just wanted to let you know that i feel for you. I am glad that you deviated from your normal habits and posted about it, because sometimes things happen that completely shake you from the inside out,and they need to be expressed...and while i am sad that it happened to you, i want to thank you for sharing, because i feel so much better having read that i am not the only person in the world who is having this experience...:)